JUNK=ed & good luck for final submission!

It's the second last week of semester 6/2nd of December. My my how time flies. In a month, it'll be 2013. Where did the time go? Oh right, to assignments. Boo. But all in all, I'm excited for this semester to end. I still have truck loads to do for final submission but I'm confident that I'll get it done.

In other news, who knew that the JUNK=ed elective we took this semester would cause so much stress. We faced so many issues during the period of time we had to construct, it was frustrating. I haven't had this many emergency phone calls from classmates in ages. 

But everyone did a great job, everyone cooperated and helped each other, and especially to the men (you know who you are) who dedicated so much time and effort to constructing the structure and roof of the guard shed, you guys are truly awesome and macho men! Haha. Everyone did a great job in contributing to the project. It's unfortunate that we couldn't keep the shed at the location it was constructed on but, que sera sera. We still managed and we still did great!

This photo speaks for itself.

Okay this photo is pretty surreal. It looks like Moe and Nesh found the Tesseract or something.

Dextie, the main contractor. Ohohoho!

Here's a photo of the group! Photo credits to Pam.

Can you make out the words?

Took a very flattering shot of Zi Kang under the sun. Whimsical, isn't it?

The girls poking cacings and calling them water balloons.

Installing the milk bottle planter boxes.

Jessie and Nureen with the signage! Super love the fonts! Photo credits to Pam.

A photo I took, just to show every element there is in the shed. The grass really looks like a part of our landscape! Argh this site is so pretty, daym!

Here is Kyle, analyzing our shed while Moe glares with his fierce facial expression.

This is the chair that Leslie made for the guard. It's so canggih and luxurious! He should use it in the studio! Not give it to the guard! haha.

This photo should be in a magazine. Photo credits to Pam.

Hooray! Photo credits to Pam.

Edit: Here are some photos that our classmate Benjamin took! So pretty!

Everyone admiring our own work.

Fish scales!

So pretty.

Some bromance drama goin' on ~

Candid shot of us. :)

To everyone and anyone (especially my classmates), GOOD LUCK WITH YOUR WORK! ALL THE BEST! MAY WE SURVIVE THIS SEMESTER TOGETHER! WE CAN DO THIS! 

HERE'S A SONG FOR YOU TO SPAM WHILE DOING WORK! :)

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Rant of the week. You may choose not to read this nonsense.

I've had my fair share of panic attacks this pass few weeks. No they're not fun and no they're not coohl, because they make me whimper like a sad baby seal who's lost on a shore with no where to go. Having to know that I didn't do as well as I hoped for a few of my subjects have really struck a nerve. I try so hard and yet the results I get are never whart I expect them to be. It's a waste. I feel very scared at the moment, scared that my CGPA will be horrible after this final semester, scared that I will fail, scared that I won't graduate. I'm so scared that as I type this, a surge of adrenaline has just entered my system and my heart is beating as fast as a race horse on the track. Palms are all sweaty too. I can't describe this stress I'm inflicting onto myself. Can't tell if it's over-thinking or if I'm really predicting my own fate. 

This made me realize, whart if all of this didn't matter? Everything is too subjective. My grades depend on whether or not some person likes my work. And if they don't, well then fuck it, I'm not gonna do well. But why does it matter? I've already decided not to be an architect and I've already decided whart I wish to do with my own life, why does this matter so much to me? In my future, I see myself as more of an artist, as an educator, and a person who owns a beautiful cafe. I'd draw and paint whatever I want, whenever I please. I'd find ways to express myself through art or photography or through my dream cafe. So why am I so scared? I suppose it's just the fear of disappointing my parents, and myself. Is that a valid reason? Yes. Because I would never want to disappoint my parents. Despite being the most satanic child they have, they still expect me to be the best that I can be.

So I'm going to have to reassure myself. I'm so scared at the moment, but I'll do my best. I'll try to do whatever I can to succeed. This is only one chapter in my life anyway. And I'm excited to end it. I'm pretty sick of it. Only two weeks left until my final submission, and I have lots to do, but I will complete everything that needs to be completed, I will submit, I will present, and I will not fail.