Life as we know it ...

Let me describe my current emotions at this very moment. I just got home from watching Men In Black 3 with a very good friend of mine and was feeling awfully pleasant about it. But nao that I'm alone in my cave, I'm letting the gears in my little brain turn.

At this very moment, I'm feeling ...

Panic.

Nervous.

Stress.

Numb.

Annoyed.

Confused.

Chaotic.

Lazy.

Tired.

Offended.

I honestly, seriously HONESTLY, feel like just running away right nao, leaving everything behind, and going to some beautiful beach to just chill and forget about everything here. I want to leave, so badly. To Maldives, specifically. Have you seen their resorts? TO DAI FOR.

I can't even begin to describe how much I need this.

Sigh. I had such a major outburst the other day (I'm exaggerating. I know how I am when a REAL eruption occurs), and I really don't think it's my fault for being so angry (even though I kind of blame my lack of food intake and lack of sleep). I apologize nonetheless. I don't think I anger that easily. I get irritated easily, yes. But I'm proud to say that my patience has improved throughout the years (except for that day). Okay, whatever.

Anyway, I feel the pressure right nao. I've given myself the weekend to fully absorb the gravity of this semester and its ridiculous workload. I realized how fucking serious it is during my outburst a few days back (LOL). Right nao, I have sooo many things to do and prepare for that I don't even know how to begin. I feel so much pressure on me because for some reason, I feel like people are depending on me. But the worst thing is, I don't know if I can rely on others to help me help them (you get it?). I'm not Superwoman. T_T I need help too.

It is now the 1st of June, a Friday. I'm giving myself Friday and Saturday to kind of loosen up a little before I go full on work mode. Sunday, I have dinner with my family so during the day, I can work my ass off. On whart? I dunno yet. 

I need to reorganize. I have too many things going on right now. PADI, Studio, B. Science, Comics, B. Tech. God help me (seriously, please, help me).

Sigh.

Okay here's the plan:

1) Today; Comics - tell Ms. Alina my idea for my final submission. B. Science - finish the goddamn lab experiment.

2) Weekend. Focus on Studio, try to finish by Monday evening. 

3) Split the car park office for B. Tech.

4) Tuesday - Interim (God bless me).

5) Wednesday - PADI meeting; B. FUCKING. SCIENCE. PROGRESS. PLEASE. Construct a fucking report already omg.

6) Wednesday - try to fit Studio in here. Maybe at night?

Okay, my schedule will eventually change but this is the current situation now. Need to turn on robot work mode sigh. SLEEP FOR 5 HOURS EVERYDAY IF POSSIBLE OH GOD WAI.

Here's some photos of crap that I've been up to.

Okay larh enough ranting bye.