In need of a good shoulder to cry on but no one is available so I shall just rant on my blog

Anyone who has added me on their Twitter or Facebook knows that I've just experienced my whole world crumble before my very own eyes. It may not seem like a big deal to many (especially those who aren't in my course) but it is a major deal to me.

My hard disk is currently experiencing hardware failures and cannot be detected on any laptops or computers. I've been to about 3-4 shops in which the owners are those of whom are familiar with all these high-tech mambo jumbo that us simpletons don't know shit about. Each person I go to, they will direct me to another who is more experienced and who can actually diagnose the problem with more depth and detail. The last person I went to told me that I have to send my hard disk to a shop in Kepong because there are only a few shops that are skillful enough to break my hard disk apart, retrieve every single thing that I've put into it and store it back into another hard disk.

When I was form 5, I experienced the same problem. But back then, I didn't have much to lose. At this very moment, I have 3 years worth of work in that hard disk and 3 good years of photos from 2009 - 2011 in there too. I don't care about the music, movies and manga stored in there, I JUST NEED MY WORK AND PHOTOS BACK. I will continuously kick myself in the ass for not bothering to back up my files. THE STUPIDEST THING I HAVE EVER DONE IN MY LIFE. I use to never depend on hard disks so much but why, oh why did I this time? It's my fault really. I blame my carelessness. ): No use crying over spilled milk (even though I cried bucket loads 2 days ago).

Honestly, I don't care how much it costs. I don't care if I have to starve for a month to pay them people to retrieve my data. JUST TELL ME THAT IT IS POSSIBLE. Judging by what the shop owner in Low Yatt said, it IS possible. But difficult tasks like these cost a lot of money. I don't care, I won't give up. I can't give up. D:

I know I know, it's not like someone died or anything. But put yourself in my shoes. Imagine the major stress I put myself through for 3 years straight, collecting documents, saving reports, my soft copy of folios, my recordings and analysis, practically EVERYTHING to do with my Architecture course - potentially disappearing forever and for a reason that no normal person would know of. It's worse knowing that my family can't relate and constantly poke at me instead of spreading love and generously giving me some hopeful words. I appreciate those who have comforted me, those who could relate with me (sharing their past experiences), Google and those who attempted to help me even though they knew whatever solution they suggested might not work. Thanks guys. Now all I need is hope and prayers. Will send my hard disk to the shop next week, after returning from Bangkok.

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On another note, to cheer myself up, I played around with Sketchup and 3Ds Max. Rendered everything already which is good. I don't care how simple or boring it is, as long as the criteria is met then wtv. (Y)











The landscape is hilarious. I wanted to add more buildings but I got fed up with how my programs began to lag; so this is good enough. As long as I don't fail the subject.

I will go look for food now because that is how I deal with depression.