There's a dent in my heart

[EDIT] Typed this out a few days back.

I was so excited about working at the kindy but the bosses just dropped a major bomb on me, which kinda makes me question whether working at Centrepoint is worth it. The original agreement between me and the kind was that I got paid a decent amount of money (that I considered pretty okay despite the travelling and traffic I'd have to go through going to work + all the training I went through) for 4 days of work per week, but they just told me that my pay might have to be cut in half which is barely enough for me to even pay for a month's worth of petrol for my car. 

I thought with this job, I could finally pay for petrol, toll and even food by myself but if my salary is that bad, and I had to go through so much trouble going to Damansara for this job, I don't think it's worth my time. I'd rather find work in Subang, at least I wouldn't have to spend so much on parking and shit like that. This sucks. 

It isn't fair either. I originally wanted to work in the Citta Mall branch (as stated in their ad) but they said I had to be in Damansara. Okay fine. Travelling there ain't great nor is going back home at 6pm (traffic gahddd) but I didn't mind so much. I willingly went to Damansara a few times to go through training, genuinely having the want to learn how to teach children (which I find so challenging but I didn't complain). But if they're gonna be so inconsistent with the classes and our agreement then, is it even worth it? 

Perhaps this is where black and white contracts come in handy. I should've drawn up a contract and made them sign it haha. I emailed them, my attempt at negotiating so ... we'll see how it goes I suppose. But for nao, gonna have to form a Plan B. T^T Sucks man. 

Can I just be an artist tepi jalan minding her own business eating keropok lekor while observing manusias or something? Seems like a happier life.

[EDIT] God bless my Deputy Dean for allowing me to be a part of the Chew Jetty research thinggy. At least I can look forward to some form of income! We'll finish that booklet you want to publish Dr. V! I PROMISE! Hahaha.

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Had a barbeque at Teck Hong's place (self invitation) with the college mates because we're obsessed with barbeque-ing or something. Spent a lot of the night making marshmallows, talking about our love for Pokemon and throwing ice at each other ... No big deal ... It's not like we're adults or anything ...

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Recently had a short trip to Malacca with mah waifu. It was a super calm trip, something I'm craving more of at the moment. Was able to actually explore the cafes in Malacca. So many beautiful places, just feeding my obsession and love for cafe design. :)

This was the first thing I purchased! Haha. Of all things right?! But there was a second hand book store in front of our backpackers! The uncle sold me this comic for RM8! IT'S A GOOD VOLUME K! See! Ranma and Akane hold hands!!!1!1!!11!

Chilled at Geographer Cafe the first night, waiting for Panna. After 6 years, managed to meet up with that miang woman! Hahaha! It was fun talking to her! She had a lot of stories about criminal law! Haha.

A DELICIOUS BREAKFAST AT A BEAUTIFUL BED AND BREAKFAST!

These are photos of the Voyage Traveller's Lodge Bed and Breakfast. I am in love with this place! It's got to be the prettiest makan place ever! I love the food too, totally delicious. Just look at the rattan chairs! Don't they look inviting? Don't you want to just sit there for hours doing nothing?!

This is the Baboon House Art Cafe. THE ARTWORK OMG! So damn inspiring man. This is something I would love to do in the future. Own a cafe a produce pieces like the ones in the photo. My favourite is the deer one.

This is the view from our backpackers! I've been to Malacca so many times and didn't even realize that the river side was actually quite pretty, with all the murals and stuff. It's like visiting a new place, seriously!

This is just kinda creepy which is why I took a photo of it haha!

Qissu and I stopped by Limau Limau Cafe just to have some refreshing juice. Dragonfruit and Lychee together is a GOOD BLEND Y'ALL!

To entice Qissu's obsession with tea, we went to a tea house and pretended to be posh tea-drinking people. 

This is the Calanthe Art Cafe! It has pretty good food and ... 

Erhmahgerd, DELICIOUS DESSERT! I had the Chocolate Oreo Custard! It was so good! It was just like Chocolate Mousse! The texture, taste, everything! Also, the cafe is actually quite pretty! Interior space was interesting. They had water feature you could walk on top of and stuff hahaha. But I couldn't take photos cause it was pretty dark inside.

We also went to Nadeje Mille Crepe. Look at the furniture ... Pimped out much? 

And of course, we had to stop at Coconut Shake Klebang! The only time I would consider drinking anything coconut related is if it's in this form. It's yummy, I admit! And refreshing, especially on a hot day! Qissu and I had two packets of Nasi Lemak each too. Haha sedap!

This is Qissu shameless hugging the St. Paul's Church.

We found a photo sticker place in Dataran Pahlawan and WHART DO WE DO? Well ... pictures speak for itself.

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Recently got together with my high school mates. Love them so much! Such balls of sunshine! Haha. We celebrated Voon's birthday yesterday at Paradox Art Cafe. It was great catching up with everyone. Seeing as almost all of us are jobless, I'm expecting to see them a lot. HAR HAR.

Princess of the night! Happy birthday mah love!

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Us ladies. :) ♡♡♡

Stupid boys playing with my specs! Cis. Hahaha. 

Polaroids make everyone look sah good. ♡♡♡

Here's a photo of my pie. I know, looks damn delicious ... AND IT WAS.

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A few days have passed and I don't feel any better about myself. Could be my hormones talking but, gosh just feel like flying out of the country, away from everyone! Under-appreciated, taken for granted, ignored, left behind, alone ... you name it, I'm feeling it. 

Sometimes I feel like no one's got my back. I try so hard to please everyone, to be there for them when they're upset or need someone to talk to, but it feels like I don't have anyone offering their shoulder to cry on for me. Kinda sucks really. Makes me wonder why I bother. I usually counter those emotions with "This is good karma. One day, someone will treat you this way". I suppose I'm hoping whoever those people may be would come sooner than later. 

This could very well be my PMS talking but, it's my PMS that's letting everything out, so ... yeah. GOOD JOB, LIFE. GOOD JOB, UNIVERSE. HOPING YOU STOP STEPPING ALL OVER ME SOON.

Look at this random shit I drew!

Forgot to mention, will be having a mural painting charity project with a bunch of KDU College students this month! I'm volunteering to design murals for 3 rooms at the National Cancer Society Malaysia. I hope I do my best and I hope the team produces pretty murals for the patients in the society! Looking forward to it! :D

K LARH BAI.